Can’t Sleep


Don’t you just hate it when you’re absolutely shattered, but can’t sleep.

It’s so infuriating!!

So I’m thinking of things. So far, lottery win division, an offer for my old job back and San da.

I’ll start with the old job. I left it over a year ago after suffering major stress related depression. It nearly destroyed me and ruined my marriage. Now I’m in a job where I’m VERY happy, feel appreciated and get to spend time with my family (moneys crap though). But I received an email out of the blue today from my old boss asking if I wanted my job back. I’m considering it purely for the money (my wife is only part-time because of our daughter.) Down sides: won’t get to spend much time with the family, won’t be able to train as much if at all, run the risk of depression again.

Other thoughts were just my previous San da fights. Keep running through my mind where I went wrong etc. Hopefully the new mma training I’m starting Monday will solve a few issues.

Then the lottery division. How would I divide up £12,000,00.00? So far, it goes like this:

£2 mil to charity (undecided which ones)
£2 mil into offshore account and live on interest
£1 mill each to my mum and mother-in-law
£1 mil split between my brother, sister and brother-in-law
£500k each to dad and father-in-law
£1.5 mil to rest of family
£500k round the world trip for me, the wife and daughter
£2 mil for house and car etc.

The house wouldn’t be anything too large or grand. Couple of £000k should cover it. Four rooms I suppose. Garden has to be big though.

Christ I need sleep!!!!

Will It Never Stop?!


It’s now over 4 months since my little girl came into this world. As you know from my previous posts, this has not always gone so smoothly for me and “culture shock” would be an understatement! But as times gone on, things have gotten sooooooo much better.

I’m calmer now with her. This comes from my understanding of her needs and her growing up and not being such a blob (all new born babies are, you can’t deny it).

She’s becoming such a little character. She’s laughing at things, getting annoyed by things, learning so fast and is a total joy to have in my life.

But one thing is alluding us……. That infamous night of sleep!

 

Don’t get me wrong, we put her down at 8, dream feed at 11, then she goes through to about 3.30. Then we get her off and she stirs every half hour to an hour until 8. Not too bad really, but I’m dying for a full nights sleep. I think the missus is feeling it just as much (although she’s a total champ). My eyes feel like lead balloons, attention is zero and my energy levels are desperately low (and when you play rugby and fight san da, this can be a dangerous thing).

But we’re getting there. We have a holiday booked to Sharm El Sheik, Egypt at the end of September. That gives us 4 weeks to crack this night sleeping at get two weeks of peaceful bliss.

Wish us luck!!

Sleeping on the Job


As I’m writing this, he’s snoring………….. AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Now, I’m not the sort to moan or bitch, but when work colleagues are falling asleep at their desk in front of you……… well, that’s just taking it a little too far.

He started work with us about 3 months ago. Larger gentleman (to say the least), in his 60’s and talks incessantly about himself (when he’s not catching forty winks). His sleeping started about a week into the job. The company I work for is pretty relaxed, which is one of the appeals to working here. However, he’s been constantly falling asleep for periods of up to 20 minutes a day on numerous occasions throughout the day and they’ve done nothing about it! At first, my team and I put this down to his age and the fact he hadn’t been working for a few months prior, however, it’s now 3 months later and it’s beginning to smack of insulting. As he falls asleep, he reminds me very much of a Snorlax (off of Pokemon fame)

We’ve broached the subject with our company secretary and also HR. They say an occupational health survey has been done on him, but no results have been published and no action has been taken. And he’s still sleeping. It got to the point today he went for a snooze in his car at lunch (as he always does, never socialises in the canteen), was late back for a meeting, so the company secretary went out and woke him up. AND STILL NOTHINGS BEEN SAID OR DONE!!!!!

We’ve even spoke directly to him about it. He says he is on medication for his knee. They shouldn’t make him sleepy, but he’s taking triple doses because of the pain……….. And he’s still driving!!! Surely that’s got to be illegal if these drugs have even the slightest implication of making the taker drowsy?

This is a real serious bone of contention for me. As you know, I’ve got a 3 month old girl. She’s starting to teeth and has a cold, so a nights sleep is thin on the ground in my house. So when I see this bastard snoring the day away and nothing being done about it, it rattles my cage me something chronic.

Anyone have any similar experience or know of the UK legal situation relating to this matter?

Hate my job


It’s now 11.30 pm and I’m sat watching tv and DREADING going to sleep.

Normally, I love my bed, but Sundays are always different. See, I hate my job. Not just as everyone hates their job but my job has caused me depression, it has risked my marriage through my moods and has directly affected my physical health because due to having to work late I can’t find the time to effectively exercise (plus I’m in such a bad mood I can’t get the motivation to do any).

My boss makes me feel worthless and the pure fear of going in to work and wondering what I’ll get blamed for next and what abuse I’ll suffer is absolute torture. I’m trying to stay awake because when you sleep, time runs quicker and that is one thing I don’t want to happen. But I’m so tired. I don’t have much choice really.

This may sound pathetic and childish but I honestly can’t take much more.

Still, I only have 8 working days left and I’m totally free of it. Just have to hope I have the strength to survive the horrific feelings I get every time I think about that place.